Its about 4 days before the end of the year, and 3 months since my last blog confession, so i felt it was time for some reflection. Anyone that knows me will tell you that im constantly thinking, there is always a billion things happening in my head, i can blame waitressing and working as a legal secretary for adding to my issues. So here we go... this is how the 30 year old me thinks of certain things at the end of 2012. Good bye 20's it was inappropriately fun, crazy, stupid and most of all important.
Lessons:
1. Bad parents are creating evil children. I would assume that the closer in age to your child the more likely you are to treat them like a friend. This needs to be stopped. There are way to many children in grown folks business. Children being in grown folks business make them think they are grown. I have never laid my hands on my nieces nor have i given then any cause to really fear me. However, I have never had an issue with them disrespecting me or thinking that they can. If they do hands, feet, heels will be laid!! Kids no longer fear adults, when did this happen! Mostly i see parents either dont care what their kids are doing or doing way to much. Im sure every one has someone in their life where they think omg they procreated, that pretty much sums of the state of our children. In short, if your not ready to have a child, correction.. to be a parent that involves you raising your kids, not your mom, the school, their other parent.. then wear a condom, take birth control... find out where the fuck babies come from because these children are society's future and everyone else is left holding the bag.
2. People Need to Sit You in a Box: I am happily mixed and i truly am not sure how offensive it is that people like to pick apart which of my personality is black or white. According to the people around me Black Stacie traits - aggressive, yells at kids, a good dancer, thickness. White Stacie traits - voice, good hair, star trek love, craziness. I really not sure what this proves, except that they think that these things cant be attributed to how i grew up but the state of the hue in my skin,,, or lack there of. Its strange its almost like a reminder of what i am or what im not. Im just glad im happy with my HALFRICAN-ness or all these thing would be kind of hard to deal with... like my childhood lol o well... you can read more of this in my book cant give away all the good stuff here
3. Friendship is an action: Im losing friends not really losing more like they are falling and im not picking them up. Its very strange to me that some of my closest friends are the ones i dont see that often. It just comes down to who puts in the time. Its one thing to say you care and love me and will do anything for me, and it is quite another to act like you care, love and will do anything. My 30th bday was an eye opener for me. There was so many things people were going to do but in the end those that stepped up were obvious. If you have better choices go to them. This year is def about quality... fuck quantity.
4. Who the fuck cares: The older i get the less everything matters. Why waste energy on drama or fights or trying to educate the stupid. There are plenty of things im not happy about but talking about them would waste my time. So i let it go and move on, there are way more important things going on... like im saving for South Africa to play with tiger cubs so who the fuck cares... tiger cubs... trumps your drama, horrible friendship and straight disrespect of my feelings.
5. Men can be: My current issue with men... having your kids name tattooed on you when you barely see them and dont pay child support makes you an asshole
6. Alone and Happy is Nice: I am not interested in having a third shift.. this is regarding a book i read in college, where now women and men both work hard come home and the woman is still the main caretaker of the kids and the home, yeah yeah your my man now go change the babie's diaper and gets to the dishes, im folding clothes over here. I will never be that women, women are taught to somehow feel bad for working and taking care of themselves and so obsessed with being the right wife. Well i need the right husband and if he cooks cleans and wants to stay home that would be perfect thx!
7. Stuck with Fam and like it?: Im actually very lucky to have mine, in all of the Jerry Springerness there is a love and devotion that people with less crazy parents dont have, so ill keep mine.. no matter what.. it made me who i am, the good the bad and the dysfunctional.
8. Bitches be like: Facts of life... Independent Women - have sex when, if , with whom they want because sex is fun and makes us less irritable. Hoes- hand out sex like gum Burlesque Dances - Strippers with Acting Degrees and less easy on the eyes Strippers- Burlesques dancers with better bodies and technique Prostitutes-Strippers with the taste of dick in their mouth... im just saying
9. Man up : If you wanted to change something you would, could, will, can... those that wont complain
10. Vegan is to Christian? So i think i can compare being a Vegan to being Christian, well kind of. We are both doing something for a higher purpose, are picked on by others that we believe are completely wrong, and often times judge in our heads lol Okay it kind of a stretch but o well.
That's that.. angry Scorp out for the moment
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Surprise an ANGRY SCORPIO
This is going to be my rant for the month... hopefully but as elections approach it will probably get worse.
I am hating a few things right now and yes i know hate is a strong word that is why i use it.
So here we go... those easily offended exit stage left ... thanks...
People have lost their fucking minds!!!!
1. Republicans: I cannot even begin to understand how anyone can thing the Republicans are going to fix anything in this country. This country is in financial shambles and not only do they want to elect the richest and most elite but the they want to elect the country club snobs to run the country. Seriously the United States, Middle and Lower classes are very dear to their heart im sure, i mean they are the drivers, cooks and nannies of their lives, why wouldnt they want to help us. What makes it worse is the idiots with no money are the ones help them, its like here's the shovel sir bury the rest of my body you missed a spot.
Tea Party - Racists without the hoods, come the fuck on, they still dont think Obama was born here, and they think he's a muslim... shit have you ever looked into Mr. Romney's Mormons... talk about crazy!!!
VP under Romney - This fucker was second choice after Palin.... fucking Palin the dumbest excuse for a politician and we pick her under study, god help us all!!! Where Palin can see Russian from her house... Under Study thinks that Rape is a legitimate reason to have a baby.
Pro-Choice - First off no one wants to kill babies, however ill tell you if its me or the baby, sorry kid! Pro-Life who's life because mine obviously doesnt matter, apparently now im an incubator no more than a farm animal here to produce. There are horrible parents that want their children, now its okay to force people who are victimized to have children. These from the same people who want less govenrment, who are going to pay for all these rape babies. I mean seriously how is this even a discussion, whether the government controls my uterus. Any women that votes for something like this, is an idiot. These repubs dont want you on their team they just need your vote until they dump you off the island wake the fuck up!
2. Compassion: I get more shit from people regarding my volunteering and vegan life than anything else. Seriously if you make fun of a vegan your saying, i understand that you feel its bad to take a life and im going to laugh at your for it. Really, thats your play, haha your compassionate and care for something other than yourself, that's so funny lets point and make jokes. There is an animal holocaust happening and because people are to selfish to decide that its not okay, to mass produce and torture living beings, they think its okay to make fun of those of us that care.
Volunteering: I get told you do to much, you need your time, why are you doing all this. How about because the world is fucked up and people need help. I work at an amazing women's shelter that is always full and help is always needed. I help save the lives of dogs that would be apart of the thousands put down everyday. If everyone picked a selfless cause and worked towards it, do you know how much better this world could be. If everyone took say a day out of their month, to help someone or something other than themselves. So yeah it takes a lot of time but its needed. Everyone should try a documentary sometime, this world is crazy and going into the shitter and you either stop it from happening or shut the fuck up.
3. Flakes - People to get rid of..... the best thing about friends is you choose them therefore, if they are not a making any effort to be in your life.... or to keep you in theirs... let them go.... they are not a ball and you are not a dog.. stop chasing.... understand who you are in people's lives because trust me... their actions show all... its not other people's job to respect you.... respect yourself and act accordingly
I am hating a few things right now and yes i know hate is a strong word that is why i use it.
So here we go... those easily offended exit stage left ... thanks...
People have lost their fucking minds!!!!
1. Republicans: I cannot even begin to understand how anyone can thing the Republicans are going to fix anything in this country. This country is in financial shambles and not only do they want to elect the richest and most elite but the they want to elect the country club snobs to run the country. Seriously the United States, Middle and Lower classes are very dear to their heart im sure, i mean they are the drivers, cooks and nannies of their lives, why wouldnt they want to help us. What makes it worse is the idiots with no money are the ones help them, its like here's the shovel sir bury the rest of my body you missed a spot.
Tea Party - Racists without the hoods, come the fuck on, they still dont think Obama was born here, and they think he's a muslim... shit have you ever looked into Mr. Romney's Mormons... talk about crazy!!!
VP under Romney - This fucker was second choice after Palin.... fucking Palin the dumbest excuse for a politician and we pick her under study, god help us all!!! Where Palin can see Russian from her house... Under Study thinks that Rape is a legitimate reason to have a baby.
Pro-Choice - First off no one wants to kill babies, however ill tell you if its me or the baby, sorry kid! Pro-Life who's life because mine obviously doesnt matter, apparently now im an incubator no more than a farm animal here to produce. There are horrible parents that want their children, now its okay to force people who are victimized to have children. These from the same people who want less govenrment, who are going to pay for all these rape babies. I mean seriously how is this even a discussion, whether the government controls my uterus. Any women that votes for something like this, is an idiot. These repubs dont want you on their team they just need your vote until they dump you off the island wake the fuck up!
2. Compassion: I get more shit from people regarding my volunteering and vegan life than anything else. Seriously if you make fun of a vegan your saying, i understand that you feel its bad to take a life and im going to laugh at your for it. Really, thats your play, haha your compassionate and care for something other than yourself, that's so funny lets point and make jokes. There is an animal holocaust happening and because people are to selfish to decide that its not okay, to mass produce and torture living beings, they think its okay to make fun of those of us that care.
Volunteering: I get told you do to much, you need your time, why are you doing all this. How about because the world is fucked up and people need help. I work at an amazing women's shelter that is always full and help is always needed. I help save the lives of dogs that would be apart of the thousands put down everyday. If everyone picked a selfless cause and worked towards it, do you know how much better this world could be. If everyone took say a day out of their month, to help someone or something other than themselves. So yeah it takes a lot of time but its needed. Everyone should try a documentary sometime, this world is crazy and going into the shitter and you either stop it from happening or shut the fuck up.
3. Flakes - People to get rid of..... the best thing about friends is you choose them therefore, if they are not a making any effort to be in your life.... or to keep you in theirs... let them go.... they are not a ball and you are not a dog.. stop chasing.... understand who you are in people's lives because trust me... their actions show all... its not other people's job to respect you.... respect yourself and act accordingly
Monday, July 2, 2012
Why Am I Single
I am a single woman and therefore i date, even though its a painful process and im more likely to end up with cats than a husband i try because I do love cats a bit to much to throw in the towel just yet. I am a realitively successful woman of color which makes the odds of me getting married even smaller but there are plenty of reasons why im single.
This is always the question when im on a date either because guys feel im impressive with no kids, a good job and ambition for days or they are trying to get in my pants and want to make sure the space isnt taken either way its a question i always have to answer. Normally i tell them, the cliche i just havent found the right one... which is kind of true but its easier than saying the reasons that go with that which are....
1. Guys have Va Jay Jays - I dont know what has happened to men but there is way to much metrosexuals around. Yeah Yeah i get it feelings are good and wonderful and truth is even better. However, if you are doing more than the 1 tear Will Smith cry im out. Guys now get so attached, its the age old game of pay them no attention and they are all over you. I have to deal with the after 4 dates, where is this going talk and how do you feel about marriage. What happened to getting to knowing each other, i am sure men want to get married as much as women do trust me its a shit show out there! Why so sensitive!! This isnt all bad but guys are either in the I want play you like a rock star or give me babies phase, neither of which works for me. Umm Excuse me sir your Tampon is showing.
2. Biological Clock is broken - If i have babies, i would prefer they are pre-made and potty trained! I have 5 nieces i love dearly but i still have no want to push babies out of my body, there is nothing cute to me about child birth. Guys dont like to hear that, its great that im independant but they still want me barefoot and pregnant cooking them steaks (not good for Vegan self).
3. Spookable Horse - I happen to like being single unlike most women so when i decide to get into a relationship it will be after getting to know someone. Guys like to find out if i cook, want kids and how i feel about marriage on the first date, yeah i get that, but they also like to talk about things like taming me, and knocking me up and me being a keeper... on the first date!!! i haven't even finished my salad or begun to show my crazy yet... ewww.. why are guys so marry me now ick.. just stop
4. Love Impossibly - Im broken pretty much, by relationships or possible relationships that just dont end... they crash burn and the ashes are scattered in to piles of animal shit... so... i believe in love i am just aware that its not hearts and rainbows and i prefer real over romance... so is it out there yeah of course, am i sure its for me not completely.
5. Iz Be Busy - I spend my life being busy, i like to put my time where my mouth is, i like to volunteer and i love my busy job, i have pretty awesome friends and 5 incredible nieces and life is short so im on the go so .. lead, follow or get out of my way, i will not be sitting on the couch with you every night watching jeopardy and i can make a man the center of my life but my life is active, im not a stay at home all weekend with my man type of girl im a hey lets white water raft today type of girl.. so there is that lead follow thing again
6. Gold for a Dollar - Im a fucking catch and if your not well dont expect to be more than a special friend.
7. Single is Fucking Awesome - no really it is, not for everyone but those of us that love it... its pretty great
8. False Advertising - Every man is about being a good man, and about having a strong woman and about being amazing in bed.... wanting to be and actually being is not always possible, most men that say they are good men arent they just think becasue they arent complete assholes that they are some how above the rest of the pack... wrong..... If you want a relationship claiming your going to tame me isnt going to work .. especially because you are insecure no thanks.. man insecure male vagina not ok.... Amazing in bed thing sooo fucking funny... i recently got licked from my chin to my nose... my whole fucking nose and it was supposed to be a kiss and he was so fucking fine.... that's just not right your fine with thick lips and you not only cant kiss but its an abomination... yeah no.... also men this is not a porno if you saw something in a porno and think hey lets try it.... JUST DONT... and Spitting in bed is NEVER and option...... Women if any of this happens dont be polite show them to the door ASAP... Foot to the chest or face area is normally a good warning sign.
So after reading this im sure no one is surprised im single but o well, either some day someone will want to run with the crazy or not but ill always be me and life will always be an adventure
This is always the question when im on a date either because guys feel im impressive with no kids, a good job and ambition for days or they are trying to get in my pants and want to make sure the space isnt taken either way its a question i always have to answer. Normally i tell them, the cliche i just havent found the right one... which is kind of true but its easier than saying the reasons that go with that which are....
1. Guys have Va Jay Jays - I dont know what has happened to men but there is way to much metrosexuals around. Yeah Yeah i get it feelings are good and wonderful and truth is even better. However, if you are doing more than the 1 tear Will Smith cry im out. Guys now get so attached, its the age old game of pay them no attention and they are all over you. I have to deal with the after 4 dates, where is this going talk and how do you feel about marriage. What happened to getting to knowing each other, i am sure men want to get married as much as women do trust me its a shit show out there! Why so sensitive!! This isnt all bad but guys are either in the I want play you like a rock star or give me babies phase, neither of which works for me. Umm Excuse me sir your Tampon is showing.
2. Biological Clock is broken - If i have babies, i would prefer they are pre-made and potty trained! I have 5 nieces i love dearly but i still have no want to push babies out of my body, there is nothing cute to me about child birth. Guys dont like to hear that, its great that im independant but they still want me barefoot and pregnant cooking them steaks (not good for Vegan self).
3. Spookable Horse - I happen to like being single unlike most women so when i decide to get into a relationship it will be after getting to know someone. Guys like to find out if i cook, want kids and how i feel about marriage on the first date, yeah i get that, but they also like to talk about things like taming me, and knocking me up and me being a keeper... on the first date!!! i haven't even finished my salad or begun to show my crazy yet... ewww.. why are guys so marry me now ick.. just stop
4. Love Impossibly - Im broken pretty much, by relationships or possible relationships that just dont end... they crash burn and the ashes are scattered in to piles of animal shit... so... i believe in love i am just aware that its not hearts and rainbows and i prefer real over romance... so is it out there yeah of course, am i sure its for me not completely.
5. Iz Be Busy - I spend my life being busy, i like to put my time where my mouth is, i like to volunteer and i love my busy job, i have pretty awesome friends and 5 incredible nieces and life is short so im on the go so .. lead, follow or get out of my way, i will not be sitting on the couch with you every night watching jeopardy and i can make a man the center of my life but my life is active, im not a stay at home all weekend with my man type of girl im a hey lets white water raft today type of girl.. so there is that lead follow thing again
6. Gold for a Dollar - Im a fucking catch and if your not well dont expect to be more than a special friend.
7. Single is Fucking Awesome - no really it is, not for everyone but those of us that love it... its pretty great
8. False Advertising - Every man is about being a good man, and about having a strong woman and about being amazing in bed.... wanting to be and actually being is not always possible, most men that say they are good men arent they just think becasue they arent complete assholes that they are some how above the rest of the pack... wrong..... If you want a relationship claiming your going to tame me isnt going to work .. especially because you are insecure no thanks.. man insecure male vagina not ok.... Amazing in bed thing sooo fucking funny... i recently got licked from my chin to my nose... my whole fucking nose and it was supposed to be a kiss and he was so fucking fine.... that's just not right your fine with thick lips and you not only cant kiss but its an abomination... yeah no.... also men this is not a porno if you saw something in a porno and think hey lets try it.... JUST DONT... and Spitting in bed is NEVER and option...... Women if any of this happens dont be polite show them to the door ASAP... Foot to the chest or face area is normally a good warning sign.
So after reading this im sure no one is surprised im single but o well, either some day someone will want to run with the crazy or not but ill always be me and life will always be an adventure
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
You Fail.... MOving ON
When i start having dreaming about kicking a friend in the face over a board game and wake up still angry i realize two things 1 therapy sessions need to be added to my current ones and 2 im pretty freaking angry.
Currently im angry, ok well im always kind of angry im blaming it on being a scorpio, but at the moment im sick of people saying sorry when they dont mean it. Well im kind of sick of people in general so here is why Today.
1.) Your Not Sorry - I personally hate to apologize its like vinegar on my tongue but if im wrong i just do it. Its the adult things to do. But im really sick of people that use it while doing something messed up. Everyone has people in their lives that do or have at one time done something to hurt you, and although they dont like how it makes you feel they still continue to hurt you. In my head, they think that whatever they are doing to hurt you is so important that its worth your pain. So now that you have assessed my pain and took steps to make sure it continues, dont apologize because you dont really mean it.
2.) Playing in Traffic - Dont call to tell me your going to play in traffic and get mad when i dont approve. Im your friends its my job to yell at you from the road to get out of the way and perhaps if need be pull you. Your not allowed to get mad at me for telling you there is a car coming, true if i tell you over and over again and curse at you horrible names, fine get a little mad, but dont expect me to be that friend where your sitting in a burning room and im handing you gasoline...not me!
3.) Take Take Take Take - Why does it seem like people always want what they wont give. There are a number of people in my life that expect me to be their ride or die friend or the hide the body friend but only plan to be my Never Answer the Phone friend. You cant give your all to the takers because its a waste of energy and you will be left with nothing. The best takers will try to make you feel guilty for it.
4.) Talkers - I am not a fan of those people that swear there will be every where and do everything but last minute tap out. Just tell someone you dont know if you can come. Everyone knows a person that tells you they are coming to an event and you never really count them because you know they probably wont show up. When they call to say they arent coming no one is shocked. Wanting to come and actually being able to are two different things. Everyone makes time for the things they want to do and its obvious what is important to these types of people.
Okay rant over, these are the types of people i need to deal with better because i am tried of dissapointment and need to take steps to make sure its less in my life if i can help it.
Currently im angry, ok well im always kind of angry im blaming it on being a scorpio, but at the moment im sick of people saying sorry when they dont mean it. Well im kind of sick of people in general so here is why Today.
1.) Your Not Sorry - I personally hate to apologize its like vinegar on my tongue but if im wrong i just do it. Its the adult things to do. But im really sick of people that use it while doing something messed up. Everyone has people in their lives that do or have at one time done something to hurt you, and although they dont like how it makes you feel they still continue to hurt you. In my head, they think that whatever they are doing to hurt you is so important that its worth your pain. So now that you have assessed my pain and took steps to make sure it continues, dont apologize because you dont really mean it.
2.) Playing in Traffic - Dont call to tell me your going to play in traffic and get mad when i dont approve. Im your friends its my job to yell at you from the road to get out of the way and perhaps if need be pull you. Your not allowed to get mad at me for telling you there is a car coming, true if i tell you over and over again and curse at you horrible names, fine get a little mad, but dont expect me to be that friend where your sitting in a burning room and im handing you gasoline...not me!
3.) Take Take Take Take - Why does it seem like people always want what they wont give. There are a number of people in my life that expect me to be their ride or die friend or the hide the body friend but only plan to be my Never Answer the Phone friend. You cant give your all to the takers because its a waste of energy and you will be left with nothing. The best takers will try to make you feel guilty for it.
4.) Talkers - I am not a fan of those people that swear there will be every where and do everything but last minute tap out. Just tell someone you dont know if you can come. Everyone knows a person that tells you they are coming to an event and you never really count them because you know they probably wont show up. When they call to say they arent coming no one is shocked. Wanting to come and actually being able to are two different things. Everyone makes time for the things they want to do and its obvious what is important to these types of people.
Okay rant over, these are the types of people i need to deal with better because i am tried of dissapointment and need to take steps to make sure its less in my life if i can help it.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
THANKS FOR THE REMINDER FACEBOOK!!
I miss the days where you didnt know how wrong people were based off of Facebook. Facebook has ended many a friendships with me, friendships that would not have ended if Facebook didnt show me the "light". So this is a big thank you letter to my bff FB can i call you FB i feel like we are close enough to do that.
1. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for letting me see how disfunctional most people are in relationships. I thought i was the only one with the emotional capacity of a praying mantis but nope just check facebook. According to facebook my "friends" are really in love, like so in love that telling the person your in love with is just not enough, you have to tell them through your status (i love my baby sooo much), and on their page (hey baby i love you today, see you tonight) and in your friends status (i just feel that way maybe its becasue of my baaaby), and pictures and tag them in stupid stupid photos of two people in love (beach scene with a heart or two cuddling dogs). It would be great if you could be in love like with eachother and not involve the entire fb world in it. It would also be nice if you werent "in Love" with someone new every couple months, then it would be much more real. Also my favorite is watching peoples relationships die right on FB, from in relationship status, to its complicated all the while hating the person on FB statuses. Hate to tell you hun but if "its complicated" your either just fuck buddies or breaking up and everyone knows it. And my favorite married couple we all know, well maybe i just know becasue i know a lot of these people but that the relationship you have on FB is not what you have off. Stop trying to convince people, if anyone spent as much time pretending they were in some EPIC romance as they could work on having an EPIC relationship things would be better for them i think. There are plenty of cute couples on FB but those ones dont constantly remind everyone that they are in love. #FBLoveMolestation
2. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for letting me know which of my "friends" are christian elitists. I have no problem with your relationship with God but do you have to spew the bible all over the place. The funniest thing is the people i know that throw up Jesus all the time, act like they dont know him on the weekends. Im pretty sure Jesus wasnt around when you were having that questionable encounter or when you were table dancing. I dont even have so much issue with your loving Jesus during facebook time but throwing out judgement statements like If you dont know God you have nothing. I love God very much she's my homegirl but do i think your the one that should be telling me such, probably not, i know your history and its not cute. Also those like this if you love Jesus...i mean really... because the higher beings are following your FB to make sure you like their pic. And now i have to feel guilty for not like a picture on FB. At some point it feels less about God and more about your Holy Roller Complex and its time to take it from a 10 to a shut the fuck up. #FBGodSmite
3. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for reminding me that having good grammer can be a blessing and a curse. I maintain that i will probably spell things wrong and use bad grammer in FB, Texts and Emails if they are non work related becasue really who cares. APPARENTLY, everyone!!!!!!!! If i see one more status about how horrible people are with grammer i'm gonna flip's an shit ! It is a social network not a paper due for a grade, i might put something up that's pretty fucking profound and all you saw was my missing comma, seriously you need help, now you ruined my status with your correction and everyone is looking at the missing comma and not what i meant to say. So thanks for that. If people try to write something correctly but dont because they are rushing than who cares, do you understand what they mean then great! On the opposite of that there is the ebonics people, the one where i have no idea what their status says because there is so many words shortened or spelled with ghetto slang that i have no idea what happened. I have to ask myself am i sure i know this person from school? #IzDontzKeer
4. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for reminding me that my friends are hanging out with someone i hate, o no they didnt tag eachother but you noticed that they are all going to an event together and you thought i should no......(side eye) #SideEye
5. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for letting "friends" prove that they have no balls or lady nads. If your going to talk about someone on your page in a snotty, little kids, status, FUCKING tag them... i want to know! Its like saying omg someone slept with my boyfriend while i was asleep in the next room but im not going to tell you who... ummm... what you cant do that!!! If you start a story you have to finish it and if it was so important you had to write in on a status, hoping they would figure out it was them, and then maybe feel sad that it was about them or they think it was about them or ....WHATEVER... SPILL!!!! And if its about me.... SAY IT TO MY FACE!! (sticks tongue out!) LOL #FBDetectiveBitches
So THANKS FACEBOOK.... for showing me peoples true colors and giving me hours of entertainment and work distraction.
1. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for letting me see how disfunctional most people are in relationships. I thought i was the only one with the emotional capacity of a praying mantis but nope just check facebook. According to facebook my "friends" are really in love, like so in love that telling the person your in love with is just not enough, you have to tell them through your status (i love my baby sooo much), and on their page (hey baby i love you today, see you tonight) and in your friends status (i just feel that way maybe its becasue of my baaaby), and pictures and tag them in stupid stupid photos of two people in love (beach scene with a heart or two cuddling dogs). It would be great if you could be in love like with eachother and not involve the entire fb world in it. It would also be nice if you werent "in Love" with someone new every couple months, then it would be much more real. Also my favorite is watching peoples relationships die right on FB, from in relationship status, to its complicated all the while hating the person on FB statuses. Hate to tell you hun but if "its complicated" your either just fuck buddies or breaking up and everyone knows it. And my favorite married couple we all know, well maybe i just know becasue i know a lot of these people but that the relationship you have on FB is not what you have off. Stop trying to convince people, if anyone spent as much time pretending they were in some EPIC romance as they could work on having an EPIC relationship things would be better for them i think. There are plenty of cute couples on FB but those ones dont constantly remind everyone that they are in love. #FBLoveMolestation
2. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for letting me know which of my "friends" are christian elitists. I have no problem with your relationship with God but do you have to spew the bible all over the place. The funniest thing is the people i know that throw up Jesus all the time, act like they dont know him on the weekends. Im pretty sure Jesus wasnt around when you were having that questionable encounter or when you were table dancing. I dont even have so much issue with your loving Jesus during facebook time but throwing out judgement statements like If you dont know God you have nothing. I love God very much she's my homegirl but do i think your the one that should be telling me such, probably not, i know your history and its not cute. Also those like this if you love Jesus...i mean really... because the higher beings are following your FB to make sure you like their pic. And now i have to feel guilty for not like a picture on FB. At some point it feels less about God and more about your Holy Roller Complex and its time to take it from a 10 to a shut the fuck up. #FBGodSmite
3. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for reminding me that having good grammer can be a blessing and a curse. I maintain that i will probably spell things wrong and use bad grammer in FB, Texts and Emails if they are non work related becasue really who cares. APPARENTLY, everyone!!!!!!!! If i see one more status about how horrible people are with grammer i'm gonna flip's an shit ! It is a social network not a paper due for a grade, i might put something up that's pretty fucking profound and all you saw was my missing comma, seriously you need help, now you ruined my status with your correction and everyone is looking at the missing comma and not what i meant to say. So thanks for that. If people try to write something correctly but dont because they are rushing than who cares, do you understand what they mean then great! On the opposite of that there is the ebonics people, the one where i have no idea what their status says because there is so many words shortened or spelled with ghetto slang that i have no idea what happened. I have to ask myself am i sure i know this person from school? #IzDontzKeer
4. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for reminding me that my friends are hanging out with someone i hate, o no they didnt tag eachother but you noticed that they are all going to an event together and you thought i should no......(side eye) #SideEye
5. THANK YOU FACEBOOK for letting "friends" prove that they have no balls or lady nads. If your going to talk about someone on your page in a snotty, little kids, status, FUCKING tag them... i want to know! Its like saying omg someone slept with my boyfriend while i was asleep in the next room but im not going to tell you who... ummm... what you cant do that!!! If you start a story you have to finish it and if it was so important you had to write in on a status, hoping they would figure out it was them, and then maybe feel sad that it was about them or they think it was about them or ....WHATEVER... SPILL!!!! And if its about me.... SAY IT TO MY FACE!! (sticks tongue out!) LOL #FBDetectiveBitches
So THANKS FACEBOOK.... for showing me peoples true colors and giving me hours of entertainment and work distraction.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Loyalty is a Fault
The problem with being the good anything is it doesnt get you anything but more shit. I have always been one of the hardest workers at any job i have been employed by and it only gets me more work and responsibility. The problem is people pick this trait out, as soon as i do what is expected at any volunteer organization, then the calls come... Stacie can you please, there is no one else, your such a big help, dont know what i would do without you. The problem is, most people are so mediocore at everything they do, that to even do what your suppose to makes you fucking amazing.
The same thing with friendships and relationships being the ride or die doesnt work. Everyone expects you to be there to never let them down, but they arent the same, so dont expect them to cover you when needed. I used to think it was just me that gave everything to friends that made me an after thought. Or work my ass off for a man that wouldnt know what to do with a good women if she was in his face for 6 years. The good thing is the few ride or dies i know get treated the same exact way.
Please do not confuse i have plenty of my issues. I have a horrible temper and i swear and im not lady like and sometimes ok most the time im just a bitch. However, when the chips are down im there even if it means shooting myself in the foot and i am always the last to give up on anything. I am the damn captain going down with the ship, while everyone is on a lifeboat telling me how brave i am.
So what is the solution to being the one that is trying to do the right thing. What makes it more crazy is im not even that good of a person. If you are not in my circle of friends and love then i probably dont care about you. And if you not an animal and dont need serious help im to busy caring about people with real problems. So what do you do, when you know most people will want from you what they cant bare to give.
My solution is at the end of the day, am i proud of the person i am, if i can say yes, then im going to keep doing me and try to get rid of the unworthy in the meantime which if a hard process that im still trying to remedy.
The same thing with friendships and relationships being the ride or die doesnt work. Everyone expects you to be there to never let them down, but they arent the same, so dont expect them to cover you when needed. I used to think it was just me that gave everything to friends that made me an after thought. Or work my ass off for a man that wouldnt know what to do with a good women if she was in his face for 6 years. The good thing is the few ride or dies i know get treated the same exact way.
Please do not confuse i have plenty of my issues. I have a horrible temper and i swear and im not lady like and sometimes ok most the time im just a bitch. However, when the chips are down im there even if it means shooting myself in the foot and i am always the last to give up on anything. I am the damn captain going down with the ship, while everyone is on a lifeboat telling me how brave i am.
So what is the solution to being the one that is trying to do the right thing. What makes it more crazy is im not even that good of a person. If you are not in my circle of friends and love then i probably dont care about you. And if you not an animal and dont need serious help im to busy caring about people with real problems. So what do you do, when you know most people will want from you what they cant bare to give.
My solution is at the end of the day, am i proud of the person i am, if i can say yes, then im going to keep doing me and try to get rid of the unworthy in the meantime which if a hard process that im still trying to remedy.
Friday, February 24, 2012
I Made My Therapist Depressed
So while sitting in therapy.... yes i go to therapy ... i know im crazy.
Any hoover... while sitting in therapy my therapist asked me in general how i view life. My explanation was.... Life is going to be shitty pretty much the whole time you learn to accept it and get thru it. My therapist pretty much had no words except to say that is deep and depressing. In fact since i have been going to him on and off for 5 years he knows me pretty well and concluded that my life hasnt exactly given me reason to be hopeful as far as hearts and rainbows are concerned.
But this is not a woe is me its more of a people need to get the fuck over themselves. There are going to be things in life that suck, that are hard to deal with that just drive you crazy. However, everyday around the world there are millions of other people that have it worse than you do.
I find it hard sometimes but it is important to remember that if you not dying or bleeding that things can get worse and to keep it moving.
It been a trying time recently but i will continue to be thankful for the people that help me smile each day and the options i have for tomorrow.
Any hoover... while sitting in therapy my therapist asked me in general how i view life. My explanation was.... Life is going to be shitty pretty much the whole time you learn to accept it and get thru it. My therapist pretty much had no words except to say that is deep and depressing. In fact since i have been going to him on and off for 5 years he knows me pretty well and concluded that my life hasnt exactly given me reason to be hopeful as far as hearts and rainbows are concerned.
But this is not a woe is me its more of a people need to get the fuck over themselves. There are going to be things in life that suck, that are hard to deal with that just drive you crazy. However, everyday around the world there are millions of other people that have it worse than you do.
I find it hard sometimes but it is important to remember that if you not dying or bleeding that things can get worse and to keep it moving.
It been a trying time recently but i will continue to be thankful for the people that help me smile each day and the options i have for tomorrow.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Dating Advice the Staki Way
So i thought dating would help me with my inability to cuddle and all around relationship phobias. Relationship is like jail... y would i do that again... i learned my lesson.
However, i have tried to date and i have some experiences that might still help those of you that still think there is a prince charming, cinderella or whatever.
Do:
Text to let the person know your thinking of them
Dont:
Text over and over, find them on Twitter and Facebook and request them......... its makes you look like a stalker and just bc its online, you are still thought of as a perv that masterbates to anime and has a huge hole/trap n your basement
Do:
Try to Impress, its like a job interview but you get sex instead of money lol
Dont:
1. Act like you have no home training, here is a secret men... the reason your losing your women to Lesbians is because all of those old fashioned ways women used to be treated... women are still doing it
2. Profess that you have found the one and you will date no other... ummm what check pls
3. Answer your phone, its shouldnt even be on if you have that type of addiction
4. Make drug deals (its happened)
5. Invade personal space... I dont know you y r you in my bubble!!!
6. Dont invite someone back to your house for a session.... sounds like I need a safe word and Elliott Stabler
7. Dont talk about marriage, kids or the future..... just ewwwwwwwwww
However, i have tried to date and i have some experiences that might still help those of you that still think there is a prince charming, cinderella or whatever.
Do:
Text to let the person know your thinking of them
Dont:
Text over and over, find them on Twitter and Facebook and request them......... its makes you look like a stalker and just bc its online, you are still thought of as a perv that masterbates to anime and has a huge hole/trap n your basement
Do:
Try to Impress, its like a job interview but you get sex instead of money lol
Dont:
1. Act like you have no home training, here is a secret men... the reason your losing your women to Lesbians is because all of those old fashioned ways women used to be treated... women are still doing it
2. Profess that you have found the one and you will date no other... ummm what check pls
3. Answer your phone, its shouldnt even be on if you have that type of addiction
4. Make drug deals (its happened)
5. Invade personal space... I dont know you y r you in my bubble!!!
6. Dont invite someone back to your house for a session.... sounds like I need a safe word and Elliott Stabler
7. Dont talk about marriage, kids or the future..... just ewwwwwwwwww
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
2012 Thoughts
I am so thankful for the end of 2011, it was getting to a point where i just wasnt happy anymore.
The problem with this is, as it was pointed out to me, i have a endless resourse of rage available when needed. For whatever reason rage is my go to emotion, it is responsible for my temper, and my drive. I was the person that got pissed off on the soccer field and played better. I felt not good enough for most of my life and took that to go to work my butt off to be sucessful.
I just have to make the rought decisons right now.
1. Cleaning Out My Closet: I had to get rid of someone very important to me. Our friendship was not good for my emotional health, and since that is shaky as it is, i had to do it. It is crappy bc this person knew me better than most and when it came down to it was a ride or die. In a time when im having issues dealing with the dynamics of other friendships it was hard to say goodbye.
2. Life is Short Hypocrite: I find it really hard to cut people out of my life or plan for the future because life is short. I try to live by it but i need a certain sort of stability. So yeah life is short when i get on rollar coasters and go white water rafting and plan a trip to china but it doesnt factor into ending friendships, saving for a house or losing weight. So apparently life is short but i have to be an adult, i dont like it but it is the nature of me. I need stability if i didnt, i would be on Whale Wars throwing pipe bombs at whalers.. and would love every minute.
3. Vegan Here Again: Being a Vegan is like watching the Holocaust happen telling everyone that its happening and them saying... la la la lalala im not listening.... and then looking at you like your crazy. Somehow caring about the another living creature beside humans makes you crazy... ummm... what. I ask christians all the time, "do you think god wants his creatures tortured and abused for your sandwich, or your eye shadow or your fashion," and im not religious but i do believe in God, my god just isnt color coated and close minded.
4. Expectations: I expect way to much of my friends. Mostly i expect them to act how i would in a given situation which isnt fair and i understand that, but it doesnt stop me from being dissapointed or hurt by their actions. I just hope it doesnt make me pull away and lose respect.
5. Soooo in Closing: Fuck You 2011, this year im taking care of me. I am going to do what makes me happy, stop putting others ahead of myself, and stop giving all my energy to people that take it for granted. I will buy a house, finish my book, go to China, Lose Weight, Learn to Ride a Horse and Shoot Guns ( not at the same time). It time for me, bc im the only one that will make me a priority.
The problem with this is, as it was pointed out to me, i have a endless resourse of rage available when needed. For whatever reason rage is my go to emotion, it is responsible for my temper, and my drive. I was the person that got pissed off on the soccer field and played better. I felt not good enough for most of my life and took that to go to work my butt off to be sucessful.
I just have to make the rought decisons right now.
1. Cleaning Out My Closet: I had to get rid of someone very important to me. Our friendship was not good for my emotional health, and since that is shaky as it is, i had to do it. It is crappy bc this person knew me better than most and when it came down to it was a ride or die. In a time when im having issues dealing with the dynamics of other friendships it was hard to say goodbye.
2. Life is Short Hypocrite: I find it really hard to cut people out of my life or plan for the future because life is short. I try to live by it but i need a certain sort of stability. So yeah life is short when i get on rollar coasters and go white water rafting and plan a trip to china but it doesnt factor into ending friendships, saving for a house or losing weight. So apparently life is short but i have to be an adult, i dont like it but it is the nature of me. I need stability if i didnt, i would be on Whale Wars throwing pipe bombs at whalers.. and would love every minute.
3. Vegan Here Again: Being a Vegan is like watching the Holocaust happen telling everyone that its happening and them saying... la la la lalala im not listening.... and then looking at you like your crazy. Somehow caring about the another living creature beside humans makes you crazy... ummm... what. I ask christians all the time, "do you think god wants his creatures tortured and abused for your sandwich, or your eye shadow or your fashion," and im not religious but i do believe in God, my god just isnt color coated and close minded.
4. Expectations: I expect way to much of my friends. Mostly i expect them to act how i would in a given situation which isnt fair and i understand that, but it doesnt stop me from being dissapointed or hurt by their actions. I just hope it doesnt make me pull away and lose respect.
5. Soooo in Closing: Fuck You 2011, this year im taking care of me. I am going to do what makes me happy, stop putting others ahead of myself, and stop giving all my energy to people that take it for granted. I will buy a house, finish my book, go to China, Lose Weight, Learn to Ride a Horse and Shoot Guns ( not at the same time). It time for me, bc im the only one that will make me a priority.
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