My V Life is a Fail

So every V day a single girl like myself is forced to reflect on my love life, well lack there of love life. Its kind of annoying i am perfectly fine being single until this holiday where i am reminded that folding laundry and drinking wine alone is now a bad sad lonely thing, maybe i should wait until Monday lol. For your info i do have a valentine his name is Reilly he is a cuddler, doesnt talk, purrs a lot and i dont have to build up his lack of masculinity. So here are my current reasons for why i think this time next year i will again be reflecting on my singledom. 1. Broken Vet: I dated someone for 2 whole months recently, for me that is a very long time. In the beginning he looked too good to be true, because he was. However i did take it slow because lets face it im a little broken and have trust issues. He was handsome, had a sexy deep voice, funny, had a good job and treated me like a queen. On our first day he stopped me mid sentence becasue he just had to tell me how beautiful i was on top of that our first date was watching a UFC fight. I have to say i was a bit smitten even holding his hand in public something else i dont do ever! So the problems start setting in. He is a Perks of becoming a Wildflower type of introvert. As in everything is great and there is a smile but inside he is thinking of stabbing me with a knife kind of introvert. So our first argument resulted in him contacting a girl he dated before me. In an adult world a 35 year old man who survived two tours in Iraq would just say what he was thinking but in this situation it was not the case. Then other things came out like pretty much i shouldnt go anywhere ever where i could possibly be hit one. It's apparently a rule to having a good relationship, so as a woman who's face doesnt look like i ran into a locker 5 times, i can pretty much just stay in the house. Add that to the non-acknowledged PTSD issues, and the attitude that if he doesnt answer me i should assume its a no. This was pretty much doomed from the start. I had to deal with the fact that expecting an answer to a question instead of reading his mind was how i was going to live my life. Here's the thing, i have dealt with the insecure, and the other women around situation. I am old enough to realize that i dont have to deal with it again. How the fuck am i supposed to give my all to the game when you got thirsty bitches on the bench. But i am sure it was my fault, bc how was it put i just like assholes and i am to outspoken. A characteristic that on our first date was a plus. 2. Recycled Text: I cannot be the only person this happens to. Every couple of months, people that i dont date anymore, like to text me. Recently i was contacted by 1 guy that peed my bed and another that licked my face during a kiss. Yes two separate people, yes my life is sad, yes i will be eating ice cream out of a wine glass tonight. Anyway, i am not sure why they decided "hey, this girl emotionally scarred me by her reaction to my failure as a human being... why dont i text her. Its not just them, every once in a while guys i dont deal with, will hit me up to see how i have been. My thought is, if you didnt care 2 months ago, why would shold I care today. My other thought is,, am i supposed to be so excited they contact little ol me that i invite them over for naked twister. I am very confused, i dont feel like i have ever given the impression that my throat is parched to the point of thirsty girl failure but i guess i cant blame them for trying. These texts often end the same way, i say something rude they call me a bitch and i hear from them again in 5 months. I guess its my warm and cuddley dimeanor. 3. Real Men: Just a few thoughts. If you tell me 10 times your a real man your a lie. If you say your a nice guy but bitches be trippin your not a nice guy. If you are such a nice guy that you have to screw 3 plus women at a time and they dont all know, again you need a new adjective. If you think playing boyfriend to a girl and you dont plan to be an actual boyfriend... your a whore, they call this the girlfriend experience. The only real man i know is my Father and he taught me that i am a princess and shall be treated as such... sucks to be you. So in closing... V Day should be for Vaj bc I am single and hear me Roar lol