The End of 2014

I am not going to write about goals, because i believe where i am right now is where i should be.  I also think that the things i want to improve on can start tomorrow and no dropping of the ball is going to change that.  So what's going on.

GOALS - These are not goal i have for myself they are goals people have for me.  I think everyone i know has as some point decided i should be an attorney and while i agree with my friend that i am a law geek.  I spend all day drafting documents, running attorneys schedules, researching, then i listen to podcasts like serial, read mystery based books and end my day watching criminal minds.  Yes, i love the law its pretty interesting, but lets be honest, if i wanted to be a lawyer, wouldnt i be one by now.  It is one thing to know i would be good at it but its quite another to want to be one.  I enjoy my life i work hard at a job i love, i volunteer with good organizations, this job i love gives me a good amount of money that gives me the option to travel to other countries for 3 weeks at a time and explore.  Why would i want to trade that for looking at 4 walls of an office, then a courtroom to be bogged down my crazy debt, what am i trying to prove?  I appreciate the love and confidence but why does your goals for me have to make me a failure in your eyes.

WANTS - Why do people expect to have access to and a right for things they dont deserve.  Why do people that get rid of me love to get jealous when i am with others.  Why do people say they love and want the best for me but cant honestly say they messed up.  Why am i told over and over again that i am enough and that i shouldnt change by people that couldnt love or handle me.  Why do people that love me not want me but not want me to be with others.  I make it a point not to go after things that are out of my reach.  I dont chase things or people if they arent for me, if they dont want me.  The idea of them is not enough.  The best thing i learned a long time ago that i like to want the things that arent good for me.  I am a rebel if you tell me not to touch the fire i will jump in.  I find that being an adult means that you dont play with fire because it burns you for a lot longer then the secs of satisfaction that comes with the thrill.